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bosan sbenanye...lme da x update...skunk nih aku ngah mncari keje lk...
24 nih...ku g amek lesen..sbulan lg ic baru..
ape yg aku nak merepek nih...
sorry...xde moood r skrg..
t lah aku update laen..msa xde,,bye

Sorry

lame x update nih...coz xde bnyk peluang nak update...
xde mse sbnrnye..
ermmm result aritu kuar ok je...
skunk ngah mncari2 u plak tuk sambung blaja..

alhamdulillah...

today is the most bad day for my gf..
she got a big problem..
a really2 big problem..
what the problem is??
haha..
secret..
all my afforts to make them happy again was worth...
hahaha..im cryng for others..haha coz im so happy to see them back to normal..
alhamdulillah..

What am i thinking????????????????????????????????????????

this is a reminder for myself..
weyhh...awat ang xleyh nak caya kat dia??
plz la...ubah sikap tu..
bodo la hg ni..
bg la dia happy...
law pown hg rasa dia tipu..tp trnyata x..
hg accept ja la..
wat2 xtaw
lembut sgt aehhh...
mana diri hg yg dulu??
awat sensitif sgt dah sekarang nih..
kalau hg rasa dia tipu hg...hg biaq ja la..
nt tuhan tunjuk sendiri kat dia..
apa2 pown..bawak bnyk bersabar...ok??

Its a day...i went to her house..

i woke up in the morning after i heard my phone rang..its a message from her..
she told me to come by ten in da morning to hve breakfast together..
so...i get my self wet...9.45am.. my uncle n i...went to her house..
haha..
he missed da first turn to da putra heights..
so..he make a u-turn..
then...he missed again..n make a u-turn once more..
with a help from makcik juai goreng pisang...she told us wheres the seksyen 2 road..
my uncle arrvd infront of the 7eleven where she told me wait for her...sharp 10 am..
so...cakap melayu la bez..haha
erm..
aku tggu la dia...adess kol2...tepon r maksud aku...baru mandi...
ayam toll..haha...xpela..tbe2..perut aku wat hal lak...adessss...saakitnya perut...nak trkucil...
50 minit pastu...baru dia dtg...tu pown naek basikal...ish3...lambat..
ktowg g makan at kdai mamk tu dulu...tp aku ni ha...ntah nape pg tu...xlalu nak mkn langsung..
pas je mkn...g umah die...ade ke..die tgglkan aku sowg2  jln kaki...kejamnya..
dalam ati aku kata...sabaq ja la...da cara ni dia layan bf dia...haha
trima r..
so aku jalan la...sampai2 umah...pasang meja pulak kat luar...ok gak r...
nseb x jumpa depan pagaq ja..uishh adek2 dia mmg bez r...lawak..
pastu...aduhhh sakit perut...haha dapat gak aku masuk umah..tp sbnrnya tandas je..haha..
jd la kan drpd x masuk lgsung..
lega...tp aritu..erm...nak ckp bosan pown ada gak...camne ntah...da x cam slalu la owg ckp...mgkin sbb da lame x jmpe..
ye la kot..cam ne r...x romantik...maybe sbb...ermm..mle a nk pk bkn2..haha(my bad habbit) tp xpe la..sharp je kol 2...trus aku dan dia jalan ke kdai td...mnum air...tgkp2 gambar..bez la time tu...xde gangguan...tp x la pvcy sgt coz btol2 tgh kedai mamak...hahaha
ok la..
pkol 3 lebih baru p.ngah aku sampai...n aku balik..
camne r...xtrluah pown prasaan aku nih..hurmm..

tomorrow..

2 hours past..mata maseh pedih..
mgharap sgt..tu la..
hampir putus asa dah td..
nseb baek la kali ke bapa bawu dia angkat fon..
she told me that she really2 cant go to that place..
hmm...so xpe lah..die cakap dtg umah..
pilihan terakhir yg aku ada..
so im going to her house tomorrow...
arap xde lak yg x jadik..
dont know...how long im going to be there..
i wish atleast she invite me to come in..
but if not..erm...its already enough...coz...
the reason y i want to meet her is already achieved at that time..
ill give to her what hve i brought from kedah..
what hve i bought for her..
i really hope..i can meet her..
maybe...erm...xde pe lah..

Allahhuakbar...Allahhuakbar..

Ku pergi menyambut pggilan Ilahi...selesainya sembahyang isyak di masjid...ku pulang ke rumah bersama p.ngah skeluarga..ku berlari memasuki bilik...tempat tidurku menumpang...terus ku mencapai telefon bimbitku di atas katil..saat itu...hancur musnah harapan ku...air mata ku...xdapat ku tahan..
hati ku terus terkilan..."esok x jadi g la...keta kawan rosak..' aduhh...sakit nya hatiku...
ni boleh wat aku jadi gila..ku terus menelefonnya walaupun kredit berbakikan 9 sen..
waktu tu...aku da berserah kat tuhan...xdapat ku menahan air mataku dari terus mengalir..
berkali2 ku cuba menghubunginya..tetapi gagal..tiada jawapan..
ku terpaksa mengadu pada ibuku..kerana dia lah tempat terakhir utk aku mengadu..
ibuku menelefonku..sayu aku hendak memberitahunya..
jam menunjukkan 12 malam...aku masih mencuba utk menelefonnya..tetapi masih tiada jawapan...saat ni..aku dah rasa..putus harapan...aku check facebook..taip nme dia..rupa2nya...dia da wat satu lagi fb tanpa pengetahuan aku..harapan ku..hancur..
jadi sekarang...aku dah insaf..aku dah taubat...aku nak mulaan hidup baru..
trcari2 lagi..apa kekurangan aku pd dirinya..bebekalkan iman yg tipis ni..
ku masih bertahan...utk tidak melakukan perkara di luar jangkaan..
alhamdulillah...tuhan kuatkan semangat aku..moga2...dia berbahagia...dengan siapa dia di luar sana...assalamualaikum

happy oo0o

baru je pas abes gayut ngan awe td...erm...ari ahad ni set nak jumpa kat sunwy..
tp problemnye..xtawu g kol bape..
i hope...its going to b da bez day ever...
coz...we already cpl for 6 1/2 month but only date for only 3 times including this..
ermm...she dont know yet...i bought her a teddy bear...hope she like it..
but i thinkk she juz wat2 x tawu yg sy bwk tddy bear..dia da bole agak da..
n i want to make it a surprise although its too late..
sy iggt nak wat cam ni r...first2 skali sampai je sunway...nak g cari tmpat smpn brg...hehe smpn tddy bear kat ctu..
then da nak balik bawu soh die g amik..
ehehe...ok la kot kan...

erm...

i wish...my gf is like others gf..
i wish...im the only one tht she would always want to talk..
i wish...she dont hide bout me to others so other people cant take her uyfrom me..
i wish...she can be with me always...
i wish...she loves me more than any other than she love..
i wish...she can take a good care of my hearts..but i dont think she can..
i wish...she could be mine..
but..my wishes...is all beyond her mind..
i dont think...she knows how i feel...
when she talks to other guy without talking to me..
and i hope...she never lie..
i dont think so...coz i know...she would lie...if its for a good reason..

alamak..

hehe...prob yg td tu da selesai...hehe cam biase r aku...slalu pk bkn2..
so pd sesape yg kat luar yg bce ni..
law de masalah slalu pk bkn2 sal gf/bf kowg...jgn trlampau2 cam aku ni k..
papepown...tny dulu...ahaha...silap sndri nak marah owg...hehe..malu2..

sakit ati nihhhh

bf sndri x pnah col langsung!! tapi ble bace cmmnt owg len antar kat fb awek sndri..
brsepai ati aku...dia ni...xpnah pk sal aku ke r??xbrsyukur langsung dapat aku...
da bape negeri aku merantau nak jmpe die..
dari kedah sampai kl ni..
aku taw la aku x kaya cam dia...
tapi...xboleh ka...tunjuk skit...maksud aku..hargai apa yg aku buat ni..
aku da penat keja...tgn aku habih naik menggerutu...
penat..wat over time slalu..cari duit...
aku bli hadiah utk hg...tp...cam ni ka cara hg balas jasa aku...sedih la..

When my love towards her going to an end??

the answr is never..coz i love her...forever...until the second of my life in heaven..

i dont know....whats her feelings towards me..but my feelings towards her is for sure..